Well, the beta this afternoon confirmed what we already suspected. It went from 21 back down to 8 and the RE told us to stop meds.
After the news that it was positive last Sunday, I took a home pregnancy test just to see the double line. It was very obviously positive. I took another one this morning, and had to squint to see the line, so I knew my numbers had gone down.
It’s been a rough 48 hours, but I’m feeling a little better now. Our RE was optimistic for our chances on the next cycle. If I have a beta that’s at 2 or below and bleed by April 8th, I’ll be able to do another IVF cycle in May. If not, I’ll have to wait until July since our RE only does IVF every other month. I’d love to try again in May, but I’m not getting my hopes up. It took me 10 days to bleed after stopping meds for all four of our IUIs, so I doubt I’ll be ready in 5 days this time.
I deeply appreciate all of the comments, emails, and tweets I’ve received from all of you. While this experience was a new low, it also gave us a new appreciation and empathy for those of you who have gone through this numerous times. I know that I’m not the only one who received bad news in the past few days, so please continue keep everyone in your thoughts and prayers.
“…We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.”- 2 Corinthians 4:9-11
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I’m so sorry, Lisa! I know how hard this is after all the hopes you had in IVF. I’m thinking of you and praying for your heart! Have you thought about an FET rather than going straight into another fresh cycle?
Thanks, Amanda. We only had one embryo make it to freeze, so we don’t feel it’s worth it to do a FET with just one right now. We’re going to try another fresh cycle.
🙁 So sorry!
Thank you, Katie!
I’m so sorry! I’ve been MIA for blog land so have missed what is going on, but regardless I hate that you have to go through this. I know God knows the exact minute your babies will enter this world. I don’t doubt His perfect plan for you. I know that doesn’t take away the pain, but sending you BIG hugs from Texas! xoxo
Thanks, Caroline. I’ve been thinking about you and praying for you, too. It’s been a rough few weeks for a lot of us in IF-Blog Land, hasn’t it? Sending you hugs back.
Oh, Lisa. I am so, so sorry, hon. How crushing. I’m so sad for your news, and I totally admire your hopeful outlook.. Speaks volumes about your faith and perseverance. I’ll be praying that all goes well for you to try again in May. Big hugs, Lisa. xoxo Love and prayers. I tell myself all the time – God’s timing. xo
Yes, His timing is perfect. I may hate it, but it’s perfect. Thanks for the prayers. I do appreciate them!
I’m so sorry this cycle didn’t work out. Take your time to heal and recover.
Thanks so much.
My heart was so sad as I read the words “officially over”. If my heart broke while reading your words, how much more yours must have shattered as you wrote them. I have been praying for you, dear one, and will continue to do so. Wish I had the power to heal you, but I am so grateful to personally know the One Who can! Will continue to mention your name to Him and believe Him for the miracle you need. Lots of love and hugs coming your way. 🙂
Thank you, Cheryl. I know you are a faithful prayer warrior, and I so deeply appreciate it.
I have been reading your posts but have been unable to comment. I am so sorry girl. I know all too well the feelings of hearing you are pregnant to only hear a few days later that you will miscarry. I’m praying for you and I know that God has a special plan and purpose for you and your babies. hugs! xoxo
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Thanks, Elisha. I appreciate the prayers!
Ohh. Lisa.. I didn’t see any of your updates on my reader.. somehow I was thinking about you today and clicked over. I am so sorry for your loss. My initial beta was 21… and it went up only to 23. My bleeding started 3 days after I stopped all the meds. It’s just so heartbreaking… I’m sorry that you had to go through with it. I know you posted this a week ago, but know that I am thinking of you. You’re strong and things will eventually get better.
Thank you, Isabelle. I’m so sorry that you had to go through this, too. Hugs to you, friend.