Today’s post is a guest post from Janelle at The Smudge Curve. I think it’s a lovely reminder of God’s promises and hope after miscarriage.
It’s been about a month since my miscarriage, although to me it still feels like just yesterday.
Most days I’m okay; as long as I don’t think about it the pain stays away. But then there are things that trigger the downward spiral of emotions.
Reading articles about miscarriage…
Talking to friends who’ve also experienced miscarriage…
Seeing the body pillow that I bought for my expanding belly that I no longer need…
The seemingly endless (and unusual) spotting during my first cycle after the miscarriage…
But the most painful reminder? Being around my pregnant friends.
Sigh.
It’s a struggle against jealousy, resentment, and anger; and a struggle for peace, acceptance, and contentment. It’s a struggle…
… to be genuinely happy for someone else’s blessing when doing so reminds you of how you lost your baby.
… to listen to prayers for God to bless them with a healthy baby when you know, for some reason in His good and perfect will, that He didn’t do that for you.
… to finally, after over a year of “trying,” feel the thrill of conceiving new life, and then to feel the intense disappointment and sorrow of that life ending all too soon.
And then I look at my precious son and wonder if he’s going to be an only child forever. It’s so easy to get lost in these thoughts.
It’s during these moments of darkness that I cling to God’s promises. Promises of hope:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit (Romans 15:13).
Promises for strength:
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).
He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength (Isaiah 40:29).
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9).
For grace:
Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need (Hebrews 4:16).
That somehow this will work out for my good:
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
And that my biggest need has already been taken care of:
Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God (Romans 5:1-2).
Many thanks to Janelle for sharing a bit of her story. Please leave a comment below to let her know you appreciate her. Check out my Guest Posting Guidelines if you’d like to submit a guest post.
Janelle is a wife, first-time stay-at-home mom, homemaker, and former substitute teacher. But the most important thing she could tell you about herself is that she is a sinner saved by grace through the life, death, and resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ. You can find her blogging about her motherhood journey at The Smudge Curve.
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