Today’s post is a guest post by Abbey Clark. She blogs at Be the Light and I’m so honored she was willing to share part of her story here.
Please note: Abbey shares her experience with how she and her husband came to discern that God was leading them towards IVF. Both Abbey and I understand that the Holy Spirit may lead different couples down different paths and by no means are we saying that everyone should make the same decision she did.
My husband and I have been struggling with infertility for a little over two and half years. Approximately one year ago we started seeing a reproductive endocrinologist. Despite multiple attempts with hybrid, progesterone, clomid and one IUI we were unable to conceive and were instructed to proceed with IVF.
I had many reservations about pursuing IVF and often asked myself, “How far is too far?” My relationship with God is very important and I often find myself questioning the strength of my faith throughout our infertility journey. I was excited about the possibilities with IVF but I couldn’t help escaping this idea that IVF made me weak. It felt like if I chose to pursue IVF I was telling God I didn’t trust Him and His plans. I felt weak because I didn’t want to wait another month. I kept praying that God would remove this desire for me to have a baby so that I could make him proud and wait on him but the desire kept growing stronger and stronger.
Last month my husband and I decided to pursue IVF for the first time. The decision did not come easily but I believe that God is watching over us throughout this process. I stumbled upon a verse shortly after making our decision which reminded that it’s okay to be weak sometimes. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.”
I think for a long time I wanted God to reassure me that by pursuing this or that He would bless us with a child. However, God has assured us He is not angry or upset with me for my desires. He put those desires in me for a reason and He can use anything and everything to fulfill His will for my life. It’s not up to me to decide how He does it. I just need to pray for His provision and listen for His voice. He will lead the way.
Abbey and her husband live in a small town near Ann Arbor, Michigan called Clinton. They have been blessed with an amazing marriage for the last five years. Their faith in God is of the most importance to them and it is truly their desire to follow His will for their life. Although God has taken them through a period of waiting they believe that God is faithful, loving and merciful and he will not leave them alone in this journey. You can read more on her blog.
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